EssenceChild with anorexia, from being so tense that she cannot eat; this comes from her mother having an affair, but she cannot tell her father; she is torn by loyalty to both her parents and fears to lose them when they will really fight.
Pregnancy was unplanned, parents thought of an abortion as the other children were already a big burden. Parents thought that it was a finished family, so doubted about keeping her, thinking "Oh, my God, another one".
Child, six years, confused by bombardments, standing in the way of her older brothers when going to the shelters; panic, holding on to her mother in the threats of the war.
MindSmall, shy, modest.
Feeling superfluous.
Not getting enough attention, the others are already waiting.
Pushed around by siblings.
Fragility.
Aversion being touched.
Being soft and nice, more so because the parents have already trouble with the older siblings.
An afterthought.
But in reality wanted as a child.
Where am I, where is my place.
Displaced person.
Help, sorry I am here, don't feel offended.
Asking permission for simple things, to go to the toilet or eat something.
Puzzled, astonished.
BodyLungs: problems.
Heart: arteriosclerosis.