Essence: exploring your creative abilities.Exploring creative abilities
They are never sure what they really would like to do in the creative field. They try a little bit here and a little bit there, but it never gets any further than just sniffing around. They start several courses, perhaps they even finish them, but that is as far as they get. They are so afraid they’ll choose the wrong thing that they won’t even start. The responsibility is too much for them, they are too afraid that they won’t be able to contribute anything new to the world. ‘Should I become a psychiatrist or a musician?’ is the sort of question that they can never resolve.
Unofficial creative activitiesAlthough they may try several new things at the same time, nothing ever comes of it. They don’t trust their own inspiration, thinking it isn’t good enough. They don’t mind dabbling in a few things here and there, but only behind closed doors. It is nothing more than a try out and not worth exposing it to the public gaze in case it invites comments or conflicts. Being involved in several things at the same time is both a hindrance and an excuse to them for not finishing what they have started.
Surrender criticismWhen criticism comes their way they tend to simply go along with it. They don’t really want to take a stand, afraid to be non-conforming. It is not their habit to stand out in a crowd. They often come from a relatively simple background where anything out of the ordinary was not really appreciated. The arts and the sciences were not for their sort of people, that was something for the upper classes. So when they discover an artistic talent in themselves they start to have great doubts whether this is really possible. Can they really rise above mediocrity to create something unique?
Discouraged by admirationThey are easily discouraged and the slightest setback makes them think: ‘See, I knew I couldn’t do it’. When they have an off day they feel like quitting altogether, ‘there are so many people who can do a better job anyway’.
Discouraged by talkingTalking is equally difficult for them. They hum and ha and have to deliberate a long time before they say anything. They aren’t used to talking in front of a group and they don’t like it. They feel that what they have to say isn’t important, ‘anybody could have thought of that’.
MindFears: heights, ladders, narrow spaces, show, performance, speeches, anticipation.
Dreams: heights, falling, ladders, mountain, volcano, water, sea, bird, swan, blue, mines.
Irritability: < humiliation.
Mood: uncertain, crying.
Hobbies: singing, art, music, acting.
Fairy tales: Rumpelstiltskin.
Profession: artist, painter, writer, singer, musician, teacher, scientist, doctor, priest, bishop, medicine man, vicar, governor, secretary. representative, advertising agent, public relations officer, top sportsman-, woman.
GeneralsLocality: left.
Weather: cold, cold feet, < cold !!, < damp !!, > outside.
Menses: profuse.
Sleep: sleepy.
BodyCancer.
Weakness, bruised pains, itching. nervous, trembling !!.
Headache in forehead, temples and vertex.
Eye problems: inflammations, visual disturbances.
Colds with watery coryza.
Voice problems: hoarseness, loss of voice, stammering.
Lung problems.
Problems with genitalia, testes and ovaries.
Neck problems, stiffness. Pain in arms.
Irritation of lungs (Dreisbach).
DD:
Silver series,
Stage 3.
DD Strontium: is more passive, lets it all happen.
Yttrium is looking for possibilities to express his creativity.