Essence: uncertain about showing your talents or art.
Feeling observed as an artist, scientist, doctor
They feel that everybody is looking to see what they think, what ideas they come out with and how they develop their talents. They feel very unsure about their creative abilities.
Appraising everyone on their creative talentsBut at the same time this is also how they look at other people. The notice every new trend and thought and compare them to their own ideas. They constantly ask themselves whether these ideas are better or worse, more or less beautiful, more or less clever than their own.
Criticised on their ideasThey quickly feel that others look down on their creations. Or it may be that their ideas are so severely criticised that they are completely are wiped of the stage. And there is nothing they can do about it as they are unable to defend themselves.
Appraising art: the art criticThey are also very good at criticising the art of other people. This way they can avoid showing their own abilities in this field, it acts as a cover up. But in the process of criticising they can’t help but show their own view of the world, which may in turn become the subject of criticism.
Or they hide behind the general saying: ‘Art is very individual, there is no accounting for tastes’.
Appreciating mysticismThe judgment of values plays a large role in their lives, especially where art and religion is concerned. Apart from having a lot of negative judgments and criticism they can also be very positive about beautiful feelings, literature, art and mysticism.
Uncertain about their own creationsBut as far as their own creations are concerned they feel very unsure. They have no idea what they are worth, what value to put on it. They keep thinking there are no objective criteria to judge their creations by.
Uncertain about their uniquenessThey start to think about their own inner selves. Who are they, where do they come from, where are they going? Are they worth anything at all, are they really unique, have they really got anything special to offer?
Finding one’s place in religionThey wonder about their place in the overall creation, curious to know how they came here and what they are here for. They want to know their place her on earth, especially in religious context.
Adapting to other people’s ideas: overwhelmedThey easily feel overwhelmed by the views and ideas of other people. As if their is no other option but to surrender. They feel they are being flooded by all the events and views and pictures in the world and swept along by the stream.
This feeling of being overwhelmed and swept away can also be caused by people in their immediate environment who are too overpowering and don’t give them any space to formulate their own ideas.
The adapting process can go so far that they completely surrender to another person, doing everything he or she says, never standing up for themselves, like Cinderella who lived among the ashes and the dirt.
But just like Cinderella, they have a core, deep down inside, that remains untainted and precious and beautiful. Those who are able to see this core can see the queen inside her.
Remaining passive so as not to attract the attention
The are inclined to draw away from any situation that might involve judgment or criticism because they can’t face it. They have no inner criteria to rely upon so all there is is the opinion of the outside world. And it safer to adapt so they won’t see you. They would rather melt into the grey masses than stand out and risk attack by the critics.
They hate speaking in public or any other form of focusing the attention on themselves. They’ll do anything to get out of such occasions. They may even develop an aversion to normal conversations, preferring to sit silently in the background.
Protecting yourself against other people’s ideas: stubbornAnother form of protecting yourself is by staying in your own world with your own thoughts and not listening to others. This makes them appear stubborn, but it is a stubbornness that is not directed outwards, it is not meant to persuade others or win them over. It is more a sort of clinging to their own ideas, like a swimmer in a flood clinging to some driftwood.
Another possibility is that they start to do silly things. That way everyone will know they are a bit mad. And although everyone, including themselves know that they are just fooling around, it takes the attention away from what they really think about the world and what their real talents are.
MindFears: heights, narrow spaces, performance, speeches.
Dreams: heights, falling, fire.
Delusions: criminal
Irritability: < humiliation.
Mood: haughty, crying.
Mental: forgetful.
Contacts: <-, ->, silent.
Professions: art critic,artist, painter, sculptor, actor, writer, singer, musician, scientist, doctor, priest, bishop, medicine man, vicar, governor, secretary, representative, advertising agent, ‘public relations’, top sportsman, - woman, teacher.
Causes: disasters, humiliation, unjust accusations, mistrust, disbelief.
GeneralsLocality: left.
Type: thin.
Weather: cold, cold feet, < cold !! and undressing, cold feet and back, < damp !!, < wet head; > outside, < draught; hot flushes, >> warm wraps.
Perspiration: >.
Time: < 3 am, < evening, gradual appearance and disappearance; < winter.
Desires: beer, brandy, bread, milk.
Aversion: meat.
Food: > eating, < alcohol.
Menses: profuse; <<< menopause.
Sleep: sleepy; sleeplessness < easily frightened.
Physical: < motion and walking !!, > lying down, <<< accidents; <- dark, -> light; <- and < washing.
BodyCancer. Epilepsy. Weakness; bruised pains, itching.
Congestion with fullness, swelling and pulsating, of head, face, heart and lungs << excitement.
Headache starting from neck, spreading to head, >> warm wraps. Thumping pains with desire to bang head against the wall.
Eye complaints; inflammations, visual disturbances.
Face red, livid, congested << exertion and motion.
Colds, with watery discharge and loss of smell.
Voice problems; hoarseness, loss of voice, stammering.
Lung complaints, suffocative feeling in chest.
High blood pressure, cerebral haemorrhages, heart complaints, angina pectoris. The heart feels suffocated as from a heavy weight. Varices.
Stomach pains, pressing, > eating. < walking.
Diarrhoea with continuous urging at night, sits on the toilet all the time; yellow and watery.
Constipation: large, hard stools, difficult to pass, causing burning pain in anus, > lying down. Abdomen full and distended.
Problems with ovaries and testes and sexual organs in general.
Leucorrhoea, white, no smell, no itching.
Abdominal pains, left lower, radiating to leg, gnawing, < morning, > rest, > drawing up legs, accompanied by leucorrhoea.
Neck problems, stiffness, pains in arms. Sprained ankles with oedema. Gout.
Osteoporosis in leg, especially thighs !!, necrosis and swelling; sciatica.
Eczema, wet, itching and burning, on face.
DD:
Silver series,
Stage 2, Crocus,
Amylum nitricum, Arnica, Belladonna, Dulcamara,
Glonoinum, Hepar sulphuris,
Magnesium muriaticum, Mezerium, Nux vomica, Rathania, Rhododendron, Rhus toxicodendron, Ruta, Silica,
Sulphur, Thuja,
Veratrum viride.
DD Rubidium:
Rubidium is impulsive in his creative activities. He doesn’t watch what he is doing and he isn’t bothered so much by others watching him and commenting on it.
Strontium is much more sensitive to criticism, he watches himself and quickly feels put down.
DD Rhus tox: Rhus tox contains large amounts of
Strontium. We can see the similarity between the two: < cold, < damp, down trodden, sprained ankles, affections of joints. Rhus tox feels abused by people in their environment, a drunken husband for instance.