EssenceThis personality feels like a child that is not loved or accepted by its parents and thus is given to a nanny for upbringing and care. Or they retreated inside because they were left alone by their mother when they were crying. Or they are send to boarding schools, where they feel isolated and left alone. But to the outside world the family looks perfect. Later in life they can marry a spouse without real connection, living in the illusion it can work out well. Parents have no communication with the child, thinking they do the child a favor by not talking about issues, but they do that for themselves, they have an aversion to have the burden of a child.
MindOrphans, bastards.
Ailments from dirty secrets in the family, like the father having an affair with the nanny or the friend of the mother and begetting a child from the affair.
Parents who do not accept the child as he is, do not love him.
Parents are tough and cold, harsh and strict, restless and absorbed in own problems, < sexual abuse.
Neglected by parents as child, left alone when crying.
Lack of emotional bond, emotional contact with parents.
Parents are very normative, talking about how people should be.
Father is very strict, looks perfect, thinking he shows responsibility for the family that way.
Ailments from fights and violence at home.
Family looks perfect.
Everyone goes on as if nothing happened.
Deep loneliness, isolated, because everyone goes their own way.
Hypersensitive, to touch, criticism, excitement; injustice, political injustice.
Continuous state of anxiety as a child.
Sucking his thumb.
Bullied, at school, felt like a shock.
Desire to be normal, to have a normal body.
Difficulty to express rejection, take a contrary stance.
Prefers to give positive vibrations, which often annoys him afterwards.
No communication.
Few friends.
Aversion hypocrisy, < by authorities, priests.
Suppressed emotions.
Fear: dark; diseases, doctors; people; losing his job; Stasi.
Dream: trying to get out of a situation, without success.
Dreams: getting stuck in narrow tunnels.
Melancholy, < evening.
GeneralsTime: > morning; < evening, 7 pm; < night.
Aversion: sweets.
Sleep: light, restless; waking at 4 am.
Plants: are very important; he often buys flowers.
Animals: likes cats very much, they are free.
BodyGeneral: waves of shuddering through the body; cancer.
Ear: tinnitus, which comes and goes.
Mouth: herpes on lips.
Heart: hypertension; stitches, with lack of breath, << exertion.
Stomach: pain, contracting, as a ball.
Limbs: trembling hands.
Skin: itch, without eruption, < alcohol, < coffee, < tea, < evening, < night, < uncovering, < bathing, > daytime, with maniacal scratching, which alleviates in the beginning and aggravates afterwards.