18.8 Praseodymium phosphoricum provingMeditation proving, seminar group, 30K, Vienna, 6 April 2002, remedy unknown.
Prover 1
Palpitations.
Rest.
Stitching pain in the left inter-phalangeal joint of the thumb.
Slight headache.
Tearing sensation in cervical region.
Prover 2Head feels enlarged.
Pain in left eye, left cheek, as from being hit.
Salivation.
Brief stitch in left ovary.
Pain in left shoulder.
Pulsation and pain in heart.
Coldness in chest.
Warmth.
Pulsating in hands.
Image of a big green tree, I’m small
Image of gabbling ducks flying over a meadow.
Fear something will happen on moving.
Image of being in a shrub under a tree, feeling persecuted, I’m small, fear of going out the grub, I’m not allowed to make myself noticeable.
Turning to the right.
A light in the distance.
Cold left hand, hot right hand.
Left shoulder is heavy.
Chest feels free.
Prover 3Image of a rider, riding very fast along a beach, with a blue background.
Rain forest, deep green, mountains in the haze.
Red.
Prover 4Anxious, rumbling in stomach region.
Feeling I’m allowed to relax, to empty myself.
Stoical, peaceful.
Prover 5Bright.
Flowering twigs, roses.
I’m going under water and can still breathe.
Heart beats very strongly, suddenly as from starting as if adrenaline in my whole body.
Image of a train station with many people, seeing it from above as a bird.
Prover 6Stress from all the persons in the room.
Nothing is connected, nothing has priority.
Pressure in epigastrium < concentration, with nausea rising.
Chest feels expanded, as if filled with air.
Heart is full and pulsates till in throat.
All is felt, but is light and warm.
Hands feel full, warm and swollen.
Pressure in ears with vertigo, thoughts dissolve.
Light, enlightening.
Head is empty and light, as if filled with something light, leading to floating.
Idea: like a child that cannot select what to learn for an examination; a lot is learnt, everything is equally important; the answer to questions cannot be found; the thoughts dissolve. It’s the problem of choice. It’s unpleasant. The thoughtless state is like the dissolving from doubt. With such a confused performance, one cannot leave a positive impression. So one prefers to flee and fixes nothing.
Prover 7Orange, blue, green, pink, red.
Metal taste.
Energy in hands.
Clouds, blue sky.
Sunset at sea.
Pricking in hands.
Pulse fast, breathing deep.
Tearing to the right.
Heart !!!
Spring green.
Connected with the cosmos.
Pleasant, warm, harmonic.
Rest.
Breathing heavy.
Head empty, as if blown up.
Pain in old wound.
Fog.
Bright light.
Graveyard.
Prover 8Connected with the cosmos.
Sudden lust in lower body.
Closed.
Prover 9Burning, heat.
Many thoughts in head, short-lived and unconnected.
Image of my stepfather, who died some months ago.
Much energy in abdomen, tickling.
Prover 10, After the provingAnxiety, oppressive, then peace and lightness.
Burning in abdomen, severe and later almost unbearable, in umbilical region.
Image: as if someone tries to fill me with many things through a funnel, but it fails and I’m happy.
Squeaking in right ear, concussed feeling.
Light burning over left chest.
Prover 11, After the provingVomiting, suddenly, << 4 am.