Neckera crispa

IntroductionThe time after the war, where there is not much to eat and survival is also difficult. Consequences from this time.
A very strict teacher and a child who is afraid of this strictness. It can be both: the strictness or the fear of it.
I am in a lot of tension. Expectations placed on me that I can't meet even though I try very hard. This creates anxiety and sadness. I go completely away from the connection, I am in my own world where no one can reach me.
Very gentle - the ability to be in contact very gently and yet persistently - with oneself and with others; this gives brightness and joy

Neckera crispaC1 on 8.4.2021
1. unbearable pain, crying out in pain
A sailor trying with his last strength to hold his small sailboat in the surf
Irritation of cough, dry cough, violent
Strong smell of seaweed
He fights for survival; but then all at once he lets himself drift in the waves, which then become gentler and a dance develops between waves, boat and sailor. There is a wonderful softness, it relaxes the larynx. I don't want to scratch hard anymore.
2. I got lost in the forest, stumble over grasses and small bushes and moss, I am very exhausted. I have run away from home. I can't think, can't concentrate,I am just tired. I have no strength left, am completely exhausted. I lie in the grass and dance with the elves, that gives new strength. The elves have something so light and cheerful.
3. Again something seizes me, I am swept into the whirlwind of a force, I have to let myself be whirled. I lose everything: wife, children, my house burns down. A great strength arises in me to go upright through the suffering. The strength inside holds me. This is the unconditional desire to survive in a difficult situation.
4. I cry over it. It is a long, healing weeping. I escape again and again in fragments of thoughts. But then, by lightness in scratching it is like getting up again after terrible pain.
5. forward again with new strength. Goose showers on upper arm and right back. I have a good hope with strength.
Thoughts keep wandering. But actually there is no reason for it, it is all good, light and grounded.
6. Drawing in the sinuses. I can't help it, rambling thoughts over and over again. I have to think about a friend who is struggling to survive a serious illness.

SummaryStruggling in difficult situations. There is also a tendency to escape into a world of one's own. By letting go and being in agreement, a strength arises that helps to get through these difficult situations.

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