MindRetiring from feeling not recognised, acknowledged, lost parents, being orphan.
Protective, hidden, closed, do not communicate about themselves.
Rational, logical, consistent, intelligent, intellectual; scientist, dry.
Wiseacre, know-all; stubborn, self willed.
Indignant.
Firm, strong, do not give up.
Atheism.
Easily distracted, dreamy, excursive.
Brightness is gone, < disappointments, < lack of love and sex, wife walked away, < violence in the world.
Delusion: being not good, bad, dirty, rotten.
Cheerful. Children's laughter becomes monotonous mewling. Singularity. Serenity. Confidence. Puzzle pieces of a great whole. Evening is the spice of the day. The spice makes life worth living, otherwise everything would be monotonous and bland. The bitter moments are just as much a part of life as the sweet and pleasant ones. A storm can shake everything up.
Standing firm, stable, > peace in your heart, > trust in God's guidance, > aware of roots.
Childlike trust in God.
Confidence to go your own way.
Has not yet found its place in life.
Rather go back than forward for fear of falling down and never getting up again. Like children in an adult's body. Have not yet made the leap into an independent, self-reliant life.
Self-confidence. Steadfastness. Cannot live without the emotional support of mother, father or partner. Confused. Unfocused. Thoughts wander.
Dreams: A house with new windows. A heavy rain shower comes and pushes water through the cracks. Trying to seal it with cloths. In my former children's room I catch my brother in flagrante delicto with my daughter uncle having fun with niece. I am very disappointed. Why is he doing such a thing? How do I tell the girl's father? Many people sell their most precious, dearest things at the flea market.
GeneralGeneral: dry.
Desire: thirst, for water.
Physical: desire to stretch out.
BodyVertigo: dizzy forehead, as if the whole body is swaying; feeling as if he is sinking to the left front of the chair; being plumb; as if he is standing on unsteady ground that does not support him.
Head: fresh, cool head; tingling temporally, at back of head; unpleasant, heavy pressing, as if dazed, woozy, tipsy; tilts to left front.
Eyes: heavy left eye; heavy eyelids; severe itching over left eye.
Face: sharp lines.
Nose: smell of old cheese; stinging pulling sensation inside left nose.
Mouth: dry; taste bland, somewhat pricking, bitter.
Stomach: belching; nauseous, as if one had drunk too much carbonic acid.
Limbs: pulling in left shoulder; tingling in 3rd to 5th toe on right side; warmth of left foot; feet give secure footing.