Essence: powerless in leadership.A hidden leader: timid
They feel as if they have a lot of power and they think they should take the lead. But on the other hand they feel totally incapable of asserting themselves. They are so unsure of themselves that they daren’t take on any task or exert any power. The merest glance from an observer is enough to make them feel criticised and they turn away quickly to avoid any further looks. Their power is completely hidden.
A powerless leader: smallThey feel very small amongst the big leaders. They tend to give in at the slightest hint of criticism, hoping to hang on to the little bit of power they have got. But they don’t realise that giving in is in itself a token that they have handed over their power to someone else.
Yielding to power: defencelessHaving seen that other people are more powerful than they are they immediately surrender to this power. They are as defenceless as a little child. They are always yielding to their superiors. I could be compared to the strategy of a baby who evokes the compassion of his parents by his vulnerability.
Observed as a powerless figure: imbecileIn extreme cases they can feel so weak that they almost look retarded. They don’t even want to take responsibility for the simplest day of day activities.
Powerless to be dignified: ridiculedThe contrast between wanting to be powerful and dignified but feeling defenceless and passive is so extreme that it appears quite ridiculous to the casual onlooker. It is like a king who behaves like a baby. They are aware that they must appear ridiculous, that is why they are so sensitive to be laughed at. They feel that the strong people in this world are always laughing at them. This ends in a vicious circle where they shy away from power and at the same time feel excluded by power.
Hidden haughtinessThey tend to hide themselves to avoid being observed by others. Deep inside they know that they do possess power and dignity, but they don’t have the push to let it come out. To them being visible is tantamount to being powerful, and this is what they are unable to manifest. In childhood they will hide behind their mothers skirts or behind the furniture. In later life they tend to blush easily.
Emperor ClaudiusA good example of the situation described above is that of Claudius, emperor of Rome. He was lame and he had a stammer and thus became the object of ridicule in his family. He was able to observe what was going on, but he made no attempt to participate in the power games that were going on. His predecessor was Caligula, who was so suspicious that he killed almost his entire family. But in he eyes of Caligula Claudius didn’t pose the slightest threat to his power. When Caligula got murdered there was nobody to take his place except that ‘idiot’ Claudius. And so Claudius became emperor of Rome, whether he liked it or not. He had the particular talent to act so ridiculously that he slipped through the net of the usurper every time.
MindFears: heights, falling, murder, being murdered, death, suicide, heart disease, stroke, insanity, people, crowds, religion, devil, God.
Dreams: heights, falling.
Delusions: superior, alone; mania.
Irritability: < offended.
Mood: haughty.
Mental: absent minded, confused, rigid, insane.
Professions: king, leader, director, manager, president, chairman, captain, mayor, bishop, top sportsman or woman.
GeneralsType: male, dark hair, overweight.
Locality: right.
Weather: cold; > open air; < gloomy; < dry.
Time: < night.
Desires: alcohol, drugs, bread, sweet, meat, cold water.
Aversion: meat, eating.
Food: < drugs, > eating, < fasting.
Menses: < menses, < pregnancy, < giving birth.
Sleep: sleeplessness !!.
Physical: < rest, < sitting, < lying, > walking, > motion, < dark, > pressure, > rubbing, < touch.
BodyWeakness, nervousness and restlessness.
Pains: boring, contracting.
Sensations: swollen, blown up, heavy, full.
Glands: swollen, inflamed, indurated. Abscesses, necrosis.
Paralysis, Parkinson’s, multiple sclerosis. Epilepsy, tonic, clonic, tetanic.
Lack of feeling.
Cancer.
Headache. Face swollen. Trembling < anger.
Eye complaints: inflammations, visual disturbances.
Heart complaints: high blood pressure, infarction, failure.
Pulse: too fast, too slow, fill, weak, irregular.
Congestion of blood. Cerebral haemorrhage. Anaemia.
Problems with testes and ovaries: inflammations, cancer, cryptorchism, sterility, amenorrhoea, metrorragia.
Affections of bones: necrosis, inflammation.
DD:
Gold series,
Stage 2.
DD Caesium:
Caesium simply follows his own impulses on how to be a leader. He doesn’t stop to think and he doesn’t make plans as to how he is going to use his power.
Barium considers himself to be a leader but knows that other people think he is powerless and incapable.