Essence:
Uncertainty and fear of failure at the start of their task.
They have to make a start with their task
Their basic feeling is that they have to make a start. They have to cross the bridge, but they feel very tense about taking the first step.
Unsure about what awaits them after they have started
Of course they are not sure what they will find on the other side of the bridge. They can’t see into the future and they feel it might all be more than they can handle. In their imagination they blow it up into enormous proportions, until they are too scared to go through with it. ‘Should I take the step, isn’t it too dangerous?’,are questions constantly on their mind.
Failure at the start of a jobEven at the start they are convinced they will make a mess of it. They have never proved their worth: everything up to now has only been a trial, without any real responsibilities involved. And now things are for real, which means they are on their own, which means they bound to make mistakes.
They almost talk themselves into failure.
Typical of this phase is that they often collapse when they have just taken on a new job or when they have just had promotion. They get so nervous that they can’t see their way ahead anymore and they have to quit.
Indecision from fear of failureTheir fear of failure makes them indecisive. As soon as they have chosen, the doubt starts to creep in ’Will I be able to manage?’ They are most surprised when others tell them they are doing well.
They can get into a panic at the thought of what lies ahead, thinking they have made the wrong choice: ‘I should never have done this’.
Even minor decisions are difficult: what to wear, what to eat, what to drink? etc.
The inability to make a decision can become totally paralysing, and eventually everything comes to a standstill. They can’t get out of bed in the morning, don’t know what to do during the day, nothing seems interesting anymore. At night they can’t sleep from worrying: ‘How can I get out of this?’ Their thoughts drive them mad.
Starting with control every timeBecause they want to do well they start by checking everything a hundred times. But here they get stuck in the same theme: ‘before I can move on, I had better check once more’. And so they start all over again, which means they never get down to the actual business. At school they are the slowest pupil in the class, checking and rechecking every answer, which takes forever.
MindFears: failure, criticism, opposition, observed, anticipation.
Dreams: futile efforts, paralysis, persecuted by people or monsters, dragons or lions; being taken prisoner; tools and vehicles get broken or stolen; falling down stairs, being shot.
Delusions: ordinary objects take on strange shapes like ghosts or other weird creatures.
Mood: empty, aimless, dead, despairing.
GeneralsLocality: right.
Weather: cold, < warm, > outside !!.
Time: < 7 am.
Desires: fruit !!, apples, pear, kiwi, grapes, oranges, sweet !!.
Aversion: sour, milk, eating.
Food: < oranges.
Sleep: needs much; on right side; somnambulism.
Physical: < reading, bright light !!.
BodyCancer.
Paralysis.
Migraine with bright glimmering and spots before eyes, vertical hemiopia [!, half,
Stage 4]. Headache starting from neck, accompanied by nausea, vertigo, fainting, dry mouth, trembling and numbness of hands, diarrhoea and irritability.
Vertigo, feeling unsteady, falling forwards, fainting, < eyes closed.
Eye problems, difficulty reading and studying, letters start to tremble, spots before letters, glimmerings, hemiopia, < bright light, < exerting eyes. Objects appear small and far away.
Colds, dry mouth.
Anaemia !!.
Stomach problems, nausea.
Diabetes.
Premature ejaculation.
Kidney diseases, Brights disease.
Skin complaints, eczema, lupus.
DD:
Iron series,
Stage 2 and 4,
Lithiums,
Tellurium.
DD plants containing titanium: Malus.
DD Scandium: has a little taste of everything, without committing himself.
Titanium knows what he wants, he chooses to do it and wants to make an official start.