EssenceGrowing up in family that does not support or protect. Or the opposite: a traditional family in which the men dictate the life of the women. The women are restricted by men, the boss at work, the men at home, the professors, all men restricting their perceptions and choices. Men tend to fuck everything and to spoil everything. Women tend to act stupidly. They described their behaviour on many occasions in life as stupid, for example: concerning work, home, friends, family, and education.
The theme of abuse of women for fun, commercial, trading, reproduction, slavery, pornography. The theme of polygamy, prefer not to get married and some said they preferred to be single mothers and change the spouse often. Some where very into traditional marriage.
MindFreedom; both to be a polygamist, and also to live their lives by their own free choices.
Feminism.
Fear: violence, aggressive, rude behaviour during labour, rape, terrorists, animals, shooting, dark, men, fire in the forests and fields.
Sympathetic, empathy; feeling, unfeeling.
Restrictions, by the boss at work, the men at home, the professors.
Freedom in sex, libertinism; likes naturist beach, being naked and free; sexual desire was increased and they talked about it openly. Women have a desire to be naked, feminine, being attractive to men; on the other side, sexual abuse, frigidity, fear of men.
Dreams: amorous; sexual intercourse; black, strange man, with big lips that kiss them all over the body; orgasm.
Escaping, running fast, dreams danger, migrating.
Delusion: she is made a slave; men who control the systems.
Delusion: she has neglected her duty; to family, husband, children, work, employer.
Anxiety, feeling that something bad is going to happen, palpitation of heart, anxiety with difficult breathing, depression, loneliness.
Alert feeling; with anxiety.
Anger, disappointment that all women live in the world of men.
Abuse, sexual abuse, aggression against women.
Homesickness, missing brothers, sisters, but not their parents.
Lost and lonely
Depression, recurrent deep.
Threatened by violence and injustice.
Extremely irritable, aggression.
Hurried, all is a waste of time.
Boredom.
Cheerful, dancing, singing, laughing; energy of fun, happy, frivolous, playful, dressing up, playing in sand, the color red.; desire to sleep near one another.
Frustration, unfairness, < working alone.
Disillusioned, let down.
Vagrants wander the streets taking from us, then the dog bites the vagrant, and I end up the victim!.
Self-pity, the desire for others to feel sorry for you, and to help you.
Trapped.
Dream: unusually vivid dream, very detailed and in deep colors. I was driving a car, with my dad and an uncle. I was taking them to a familiar place, my workplace. We were joking, and laughing when suddenly I found that I had missed the turnoff, and was on a wrong road. The road we were on was quite high and I could see far down to many roads; a semi-circle of turnoffs with complicated road interchanges below, and parallel to us. This included the road we were supposed to be on, but how to get back to it? I was sure that if we went along we would find a way back to the right road, the other roads were not so sure. We were flying down this road, going downwards quite fast. The fields around the roads were jeweled green. Suddenly the road disappeared at the bottom on the hill. I nearly drove into a deep, dark, and still lake. It was twilight. There was a lady in a car there too. She was trying to get across the lake in a weird flat black raft thing; it looked like it should float, to the house at the other end (lee’s lodge). We were able to look on her map and see the road back. On the map was a morgue marked out. We saw many roads going in our direction, all curved, but in parallel. We chose one road that would avoid the township in the dark. Not a scary dream, but slightly menacing feeling in the background, and the feeling of needing to get home before dark.
Dream: I was walking in the bush that was quite dry brush. I spotted a snake, and told myself to be careful since I am barefoot. I am impressed with myself that I tread quietly so that they do not notice me. But the snake went past me and went straight for my good friend, Loveday. The snake bit her. Later we had put her in a bath and when I went to help her, something shiny along with a piece of shit was there. I did not want to touch it, so I went away somewhere to sort it out. I was in a big university, with loads of lifts, concrete and a canteen. I returned to Loveday with goggles and a costume, plus some equipment, but it was 3 days later, I thought “oh no” why was I so distracted to leave her, she must be dead by now. I felt guilty since I had forgotten about her, and anxious because I could not remember if the venom was cytotoxic, or hemotoxic. There was a lady there with me, we pulled her out and she was fine, we all went for breakfast, dripping wet.
GeneralWeather: < changeable weather, < from hot to cold weather.
BodyGeneral: chronic fatigue.
Face: pain in the sinuses between the eyes, the ethmoid.
Head: headache, pressing, between the eyes, forehead.
Female: infertility.
Limbs: fibromyalgia; wandering joint pains; pain, growing pain, in the arms, legs, growing pains; pain in the neck and shoulders.