Culture: Stewartia was named after the Earl of Bute, a Stuart, who died after a fall from a cliff, 30 feet deep, while collecting plants.
EssenceThis personality somewhere in life lost his own way, his authenticity. He can have a love affair and became obsessed by it, leaving everything behind in his life. Then he can suddenly realise what he has done and blames oneself, feeling very guilty. At the end of ones life one looks back and is full of regret what one has missed, feeling it as a spoilt live, a life without love. He can have followed the norms and rules of the culture, or the commands of his family instead of having followed his own creativity, wishes and needs. He feels lifeless from regrets and disappointments, living with disappointments. One false step can destroy everything you have reached; if you loose control it can give a fatal blow to your neck.
MindFollowing an obsession, overwhelming, irresistable, sacrifice everything for it.
Unable to think normally, fear to think deeper, to discover a terrible truth.
A spoilt live, a fake live.
Panic, acute, fears as if having committed a crime.
Desire to run away, far away.
Obsessive behaviour, washing hands, as if having committed a crime.
Sticking his nose too deep in things; poking around.
Sniffing, poke one's nose in someone else's business.
Skinny wives, janitors.
Spies, like mirrors outside of the window to see who is coming.
Internet affairs, Instagram, fashion, prostitutes; nobility sucked into a fake world and crime.
Internet criminality, by pretending to be someone else; this leads to guilt because I am not who I am, having a fake identity.
Stewart on the Titanic.
Stage 17: guilt; betrayed, cheater, crime; fatal.
Geishas external beauty gives control.
Strong antennas.
Fatal obsession; forbidden fruits.
Short way in and a long way out.
Washing one's hands from guilt; fear and panic as if having committed a crime.
Take on a fake role but cannot stop it later; unable to be myself.
BodyGeneral: flushes of heat.
Head: headache, frontal, pressing, < concentration; frontal sinusitis.
Ear: itching in right ear, something disgusting in it.
Nose: itchy; sneezing; smell is acute, < perfumes.
Lungs: sighing.
Stomach: pain; sick, nauseous, desire to vomit
Abdomen: pain, lower abdomen.
Back: neck pain, breaking, like being slaughtered; cervical vertebral column traumata.
Skin: goosebumps.