Culture: music The Unfinished Symphony, by Franz Schubert; song Should I stay or should I go.
EssenceThis personality feels blocked in their idea of developing further. The new is held back by the old. Children can be held back by a rigid upbringing, with too strong rules of education. Children are being kept small, by being beaten for minor mistakes. Strict rules in institutions, political and religious like the Catholic Church put on norms and orders that block changes and renewal. Lively developments are blocked by rivalry and competition. At the end of life one looks back with disappointment, feeling it as unfinished, having not achieved anything. It gives the feeling of lost talents. Or the opposite, looking back with peace and contentment.
MindChanges are difficult, painful and lack beauty and love.
Nature has its own rules, waves and cycles that have to happen.
Established, unable to change.
Desire to say goodbye, farewell to the old.
Too early ending, childhood ending too early.
Aversion to end childhood, desire to stay young forever.
Thankful and peaceful at the end of life.
Desire for the warming love of a mother or sister.
Life is bitter and hard; there is no room for love, warmth and softness.
Desire for shelter and food.
Nasty, trying to trick others.
More about rules than talents.
Repetitive behaviour, rubbing the body, the temples.
Sons of God and women, half Gods, tall, brutal and very big.
Not being honest, gambling and betraying.
Imbalance between active people and lazy people doing nothing, sucking out others.
Playful side is oppressed.
Feeling empty and foggy; nothingness.
Upright, sturdy, strong.
Blankness, spaced out.
Unable to think, to write, swapping letters of words.
Unable to understand others, as if they speak a strange language.
Feeling of having no roots and feet.
A child stumbling, learning to walk.
Aversion to go to school.
Anger and rage, from feeling awful.
Crying like the rain.
GeneralSensation: stiff, hard, smooth, thready.
BodyGeneral: body feels twisted to the right; heavy, difficult to move; tired, desire to lie down; syphilis; deformation.
Head: dull pain; pressing pain in the temples.
Mouth: taste is awful, bitter, sharp.
Lungs: yawning.
Heart: thoracic aortic aneurysm, inoperable, signs of dissection.
Male: spots on my testicle.
Back: needs to be cracked or moved; scoliosis.
Limbs: legs are cold, as if amputated; arm feels held down, lame, unable to make a strong fist; deep pain in my elbow.