Culture: Mahler, song of a traveling journeyman "I've got a glowing knife in my chest”.
EssenceThis personality has experienced and survived something very heavy like an accident, where death was near. They split it off, endure it, carry it on, worked, we can do that. It was an imprint that gives the strength to survive They feel disregard and oppression, from callous, patriarchal structures, instructions, commands and prohibitions. That gives power, something hard that they mastered.
MindFeeling trapped, split off, excluded, by the accident, death of parents, abuse or broken relationships, accidents.
On the brink between life and death, either to decide for yourself or to be called back.
Disregard and oppression, from callous, patriarchal structures, instructions, commands and prohibitions.
Grief, caged, encapsulated, severe, unable to cry, blocked feeling.
Deep traumas, the accidents, the heart skips.
Abused, violated, not being accepted, fraud.
Torment themselves, straining, > movement.
Life is a painful experience, exhausting.
Feeling stupid, to trust a man.
Disconnection, as if behind a wall, as a preservation, from lack of stamina and resources.
Lack of clarity.
Hard to function.
Aversion to have more children, form feeling disconnected.
Easily distracted.
Need for touch, connection, hugs; siblings, a sister.
Need to be right, for unconditional acceptance.
Speechless, when not accepted as one is, not taken entirely
Feeling not being right, << relatives telling "it's just a girl”.
Time goes slowly, sometimes too quickly.
Feeling very small, very little, < in traffic.
Very sensitive, very low self-worth.
Concentrate and memory poor, difficult, mind moving again, > gardening; lack of concentration, clarity, understanding.
Feeling as if in a mist; staring into space.
Fear Alzheimer's disease.
Fine of being alone, on an empty plane.
Dream: I was in a simple hotel, pushed by a friend; I wanted to stay, do nothing; I had to get out of my terribly tight T-shirt; impossible, almost choked, terrible, helpless, no one helped; someone cut the shirt open; I saw a big black insect in my shell; I was terrified, in a panic!
Dream: A lady forced me to take all the old rubbish from her children, harassing me; I realised that she was wearing a good looking face mask to hide her wrinkles. I refused to take anything of that old stuff and was free.
GeneralSensation: curling up.
Weather: flushes of heat, waves.
Desire to smoke, to benumb.
Desire: leaning forward.
BodyGeneral: cranio-sacral dysfunction.
Head!: heavy; shaky; severe pressing headache, with clumsiness and exhaustion; pain right temple; pain left half; pain on the roof of the skull; stinging left temple; stinging to the outside of the fontanel; dull, heavy feeling in the nape of the neck, in the middle of the back of the head, under the occipital scale; pain parietal bone; feeling like shimmering in the head; left temple as if someone were reaching into it, like fracture of the base of the skull; trauma, severe, fractures; brain pain, as if curling up; concussion!!.
Eyes: heavy.
Ear: sensitive to noise.
Face: left trigeminal neuralgia; stiffness and pain of the temporomandibular joint and neck, more the left side, as if it were swollen.
Lungs: yawning is impossible.
Heart!: tight; heartache like a knife; strong heartbeat, < gardening; trapped; heart attack.
Chest: pain, left.
Stomach: pain, extending to intestines.
Female: very heavy bleeding during the menses.
Back: straighten it to stay or sit upright and push my shoulders back after bending; pain in the right back muscles and upper sacral region; trapezius muscle tense; blockages in C3 to C5 of the spine.
Limbs: pain right leg.