Dear Doctor.
I took
Dicraspidia donnell-smithii C30 in January 2018 and I took it 3x times around mid-June, while on vacations in Corsica.
Here are the notes I took from what I felt through the remedy.
It is a major remedy for me, much more important than what I previously believed. I will further take it and will report to you.
Many thanks for your support and patience.
Kind regards.1390 Grez-Doiceau
Belgium
————————————————————————Took in in January 2018
. I am in a jail
. I was not allowed to follow my path in life; I was not allowed to be me.
. My father did put a railway switch to force me to live another life that is not mine
. So all my life I was hand-cuffed, in a jail.
. I was defenceless and powerless.
. I tried twice in my life to run away from the family and seek freedom. I failed twice. After that I became resigned, like a vegetable.
. I had no choice. There was nothing I could do.
—> It was a taboo to grow, to live, to get out of that jail.
—> So it's a taboo, a forbidenness put by the father that keeps me stuck.
—> That taboo, that forbiddenness was enforced by violence.
—> He was punishing me to be me by using violence. He punished me so much that I could not be me.
—> His violence was so great and strong that I became terrorized on any path to become me
—> If I move one inch of the position he defined for me, I would get beaten up
. Important aspect: Shut up. Keep it closed. Not speak up.
. Holding my energies
Took it 3 days in a row, June 15, 16 & 17th, 2018
. The remedy is very powerful.
. The remedy is very deep.
. It digs out deep wounds from childhood. I clearly feel my broken inner child with deep great pain
. I have been in the jail of the family my whole life.
. The family must rule so that I was not allowed to develop any individuality. I was not even allowed to open my mouth, to speak up.
. I had to be hidden. I had to be a shame for the family.
. As a result I felt my individuality and my life force were to be ashamed of.
. I feel and felt very isolated; alone with my pain. But I must wear a smiling mask so that from outside no one can see anything wrong, any pain or suffering inside.
. I need so much warmth, intimacy, care, tenderness and love after such insane and cruel treatment of the family. I never got it until I met Daniela in June 2016.
. Phone call today with my mother: I cannot stand her and the ways of the family.
June 16 & 17th. Remedy will enable me to safely get out of that family
. With the remedy, I feel huge and gigantic internal family structures are falling apart, being torn down.
. The remedy allows me to emerge free from the family
. I was scarified on the family altar.
Family had to rule above all.
. The
Family came from behind me and held me and shock me until I let go of my life force, until I became an empty shell. I was and I am a danger to the family.
. The family won against me. The conflict is still alive as long as I don’t reclaim my life force. Once I reclaim it, I will have conquered the family. I see clearly that I must achieve that step in my life. Outcome will be financial independance.
. The remedy unearthed the rape from my brother. He used a knife to instill fear so that he could rape me without me fighting back.
. The reason he raped me was to further remove life force, male power in me so that he made sure I would never never assert myself to succeed. I must be a Titanic for the family and for him.
. With the remedy I feel more alive. It reconnects me with Life. It reconnects me with my Essence. Obviously this is a Major Remedy for me.