IntroductionThis personality feels in a situation where he is powerless to do something against the disasters pending. He is like a freedom fighter persecuted by tyrants, having to flee in a hectic, hurried way, fearing not to able to escape. He is hiding, buried and trapped in a bunker, upstairs is the dangerous bombing.
He is like a doctor who cannot save his patient, even when it is his own family, child.
It is like an absolutely unruly little child who defies all instructions, does his own thing and still sticks to you, not trampled on, still retains its autonomy, an absolute, powerful survivor.
In the end there can be peace by letting go oneself.
MindFear and pain, as of hell or war, crying with pain, < fighting against it, > acceptance, > giving up the ego, > silent sympathy, empathy, a hand on the shoulder.
Fear, maddening, hopeless, despair of being discovered, of screaming, of betraying.
Exhausted, weak, drained, collapsing.
Fighting, my way through, keep going on, even when you're at the end.
Happy about every smile, getting a feeling that you are still human. Nurses in intensive care who cry when people die.
Shocked, stunned.
Defiance, resistance.
Must surrender.
Unruly, stuck.
Hopeful.
No way out.
Need to survive.
It's something from the lives of parents and grandparents.
Sticky, like lumpy dough, really disgusting.
Old karma, mist from childhood, desire to throw it into an abyss.
Small but incredible power.
Old Gothic cathedral, only one candle burning.
Agony like in the 30-year war.
Everything burns.
Dark night of the soul, you can't pray, only others can pray for you.
Cold machine world <, > any kind gesture or word.
Intensive care units.
At the end of life, see the universe, holy.
Frodo throws the ring of evil into the fire.
Silence.
Being of light embracing me, giving warmth, "fear not, it is almost at the end".
Half-life.
Heaviness, > laughter, humour, gallows humour.
BodyGeneral: cancer.
Throat: cancer; oesophageal cancer; constricted; pain, < swallowing.
Mouth: dry.
Lungs: breathing superficially, difficult; right lung collapsed; pneumonia; pain, burning, penetrating with a red-hot iron bar, searing.
Heart: terrible palpitations.
Chest: tight; constriction; bone cancer sternum; sternum, pain, burning, as if everything is burning away, no protection against it, like an ulcer, > warmth.
Skin: epidermolysis.
S8, R7, S15, S5, R3