Cadmium

Essence: decay and repetition in the performance of the arts.Exaggerated success
They have been very successful in the past and they still have high expectations of themselves. They want to be able to continue in the same way, because they couldn’t bear going downhill. It can make them extremely arrogant, acting as if they are very important and know it all.
A variation on this theme is that they may be far ahead of their times. They create all sort of things that nobody can understand or appreciate.Exaggerated ideas: stubbornTheir ideas are a bit past it, they are very stubborn and conservative and refuse to accept anything from anyone. People should realise that they know best, haven’t they proved that they know everything?
Another variation is that they lose themselves in all sorts of creative ideas. They can’t keep up with themselves and scatter their energies in a thousand and one projects. A typical symptom is that they often make mistakes in time or place, e.g. they end up in the wrong room, they arrive an hour too early, they misplace objects and can’t find them again etc.Overdoing art: artificialThey tend to exaggerate a lot because they are too caught up in their success. Their behaviour becomes a bit too dramatic, theatrical, or even quite bizarre. They want to translate everything into art, so that the whole thing becomes unnatural and artificial. Or they may pretend that they are nobody special and do their best to remain incognito, which is equally artificial because there is no reason for it.Repeating art: forgeriesThey have produced everything they could and now they have nothing more to give. There is no more inspiration, no new projects they can think of. All they can do is repeat what they have made in the past, but the spirit has gone, it is only more of the same.
Making a reproduction of a famous work of art is a legal way of repeating something that was unique. The illegal way is producing a forgery.Decay or pollution of the artsIf they carry on producing more and more of the same it is as if they are polluting the beauty of the original. It becomes empty and meaningless. It is like the scientist who has to publish a paper every year in order to remain eligible for a state subsidy, but he has nothing new to offer, so he changes his old reports a bit here and there, hoping people won’t notice that it is the same old stuff. This is how scientific literature often gets clogged up with meaningless drivel. One can’t see the wood for the trees.Enemies of the artsThey develop the feeling that many people are against them. The art critics will start to criticise their work as being old and boring, the director of the theatre wants to cancel the show because the public is tired of the same old performance. The mecenas will withdraw his support. Or the assistant manager will lose the support of his manager, all of which makes them feel powerless. It is as if everyone turns against them and even their supporters cannot be trusted in case they dare to give adverse comments. And so they feel unappreciated, betrayed and abandoned, the world is their enemy, everyone wants to steal his ideas and take the credit for it.
It can also happen that they are enemies of the art themselves, by only wanting to reproduce the originals. Their stubbornness and suspicion creates hostility wherever they go and so they fulfil their own prophesy that the whole world is their enemy.
Expecting to be criticised whatever the occasion they are always ready with a sharp answer even before anyone has said a word. And of course they are always ready to criticise others, because it is a good way of diverting the attention away from themselves. They practice the age old ‘divide and rule’ tactic.
The situation is similar to the one Vincent van Gogh found himself in: nobody wanted to acknowledge his art and he felt betrayed by the whole world. He even fell out with his fellow artists. Only his brother made a supreme effort and managed to stay on speaking terms with him. Later on Vincent cut off his own ear (Silver series!) and eventually committed suicide. The bright colours in his paintings remind us of the bright yellow and red cadmium colours.Decay of the artsThey have nothing more to give, it is all finished. The only possibility to continue is by artificial means, but there is really no point. There are other artists who have got something new to offer. They can’t keep up with the competition. Typical of this stage are the slow, retarded movements, they literally can’t move with the times.
The high flying performer slows down, misses the mark and crashes (Dam, proving).Loss of influence: powerlessThey can’t defend themselves and they feel overwhelmed by their enemies, overwhelmed by the circumstances. They become the slave of a bureaucratic force that leaves them powerless. They have been misled by dirty tricks and false information. And whatever they say, nobody is listening. They are no longer able to say anything that might attract the attention. They are locked up in their old patterns and overtaken by a powerful force that leaves them utterly defenceless.Loss of honour through overdoing itOnce they can’t live up to the expectations anymore they tend to collapse in a depression. They can no longer concentrate on what they were doing and become depressed and suspicious. It is as if they have lost all sense of honour and respect and because of this they secretly brood on revenge.Top sportsmanThis is the stage of the sportsman who has won the first prize several times but now feels he hasn’t got the energy anymore to have another go. He has won the Wimbledon title twice, but in the meantime there are some younger players who have gained much experience and who are bound to beat him in the finals this time. Once they know they are about to lose they may become very angry, fighting with the linesman, querying every decision of the referee. In fact they are angry with themselves and the mistakes they are making. Another way out is by turning the event into a comedy, making theatrical gestures and throwing themselves on the ground after every lost point.MindFears: heights, narrow spaces, performances, speeches, dark, threatening; easily frightened << breaking.
Dreams: heights, falling, not reaching his goal, running behind someone, slow movements, running through water, ball travelling through the air very slowly, upper part of bodies, broken, plants that have grown too large, ceiling is restricting, old fallen down factory, large church, priest, altar, procession, treasure, cold, sterile, gangster, erotic, adultery, revelations, reciting a poem, overwhelming, stiff, surrounded by dangerous powers, injured, lung diseases, surrender to doctors, competitions, trains, bright colours, yellow, cellars, jewellry, earrings, sacred dance, oval ball, secret treasures, party, robot, monotonous rhythms, clapping hands, tight clothes.
Delusions: unreal, no grip or control, breaking, cracking, slow and retarded movements.
Mood: haughty; indifferent, without emotions, cold, hard; innocent, impatient, unstable, restless, < sunlight; excited; hyper sensitive, extremely unstable; cheerful, laughing; serious, gloomy, crying.
Irritability: anger, < humiliation, << least opposition.
Mental: forgetful about details, forgets where he put things, mistakes rooms, times, lack of concentration, confused, absentminded, clumsy, handicapped, loss of orientation with regard to front and back.
Contacts: < alone, -> company; shameless.
Work: <-.
Hobbies: art, music, philosophy.
Professions: artist, painter, writer, musician, teacher, scientist, doctor, priest, vicar, bishop, shaman, governor, secretary, representative, public relations officer, advertising agent, top sportsman or woman.
Causes: disaster, humiliation, wounded pride, too much in demand, war syndrome.GeneralsLocality: left
Weather: cold, cold feet, < cold !!, < damp !!, > outside !!, < draught, < sun.
Time: < 5 am and 5 pm; in waves.
Desires: brandy, water.
Aversion: sweet.
Food: < tobacco, beer.
Menses: profuse.
Sleep: sleepy, yawning, falling asleep < sitting.
Physical: << accidents; < motion, > lying down.BodyCancer, sarcoma. Inflammations with fever.
Weakness, bruised pains, itching. Encephalitis.
Headache; forehead, temples, vertex; light, empty, clean, hot; with waving and flickering before eyes; > vomiting.
Eye complaints: infections, disturbed vision; cataract, cloudy cornea; lachrymation << yawning.
Face dark red, numb, paralysed.
Colds with watery coryza. Ulcers in nose; loss of smell. Cleft palate. Sinusitis, paranasal.
Teeth have yellow roots, stop growing.
Voice problems: hoarseness, stammering, loss of voice.
Lung complaints: inflammation, asthma, emphysema, oedema, fibrosis, cancer.
Cough with thick, stringy, yellow mucus.
Heart problems, shock, high blood pressure, anaemia.
Stomach: cramps, nausea, vomiting, cancer.
Problems with genitalia; testes, atrophy and cancer, cancer of prostate, affections of ovaries, sterility.
Kidney tubuli disturbed. Urine contains sugar, phosphates and protein.
Neck pains; stiffness. Arm problems; back of hand tingling, bruises, swollen arteries. Pain in back and thighs; osteoporosis, broken bones; waddles like a duck. Pain in anus and coccyx.
Eczema.
DD Silver series, Stage 12, Asteria rubens, Cannabis indica, Cannabis sativa.
DD Argentum: still feels he can keep his position if he tries very hard, others will support him too. Cadmium feels he really can’t do it and others will oppose him and try to make him fail.
DD Mercurius: doesn’t feel so powerless, he still has some power, even if he is being threatened. The only power that Cadmium has got left is derived from his reputation in the past and when even that is being threatened he feels it is all getting out of hand and there is nothing he can do anymore.