Essence: loss of creativity or presentation.Loss of creativity
The general theme of the
Antimoniums is the loss of creativity. They feel that they have got nothing new to offer anymore. Any creative idea they ever had has been worked out and shown to the public, and now they have nothing left to say. This is the final farewell to a beautiful career, a loss of their former position. In the positive sense this could be cause for a celebratory concert or a farewell party.
They often develop problems when the possibilities of being creatively occupied are suddenly taken away, like the child who gets ill when he is not allowed to play the piano anymore or who has to stop going to drama classes.
One of their most favourite forms of creativity is playing music, particularly the flute.
People refuse to hear him: being told to shut up
Or they feel that all opportunities to express themselves are being taken away. They quickly feel that others don’t want to hear what they have got to say, as if they are being told to shut up. As if other people are trying to prevent them from airing their ideas and showing their work, through withholding financial backing or other forms of negative influences.
Loss of honourIt is a feeling of hurt pride, as if other people have no respect for them. When other people don’t go along with their ideas it feels to them as if their sincerity and honesty are being questioned. So they soon develop the feeling that their talents are superfluous and that nobody admires them anymore.
Loss of admirationThey start to feel insulted and they may even dream of insults. Even the most innocent remark can suddenly spark off this feeling of being insulted.
They find it hard to swallow what people have to say, even if it is well meant, as if everything goes down the wrong way. This is expressed on the physical level in a tendency to choke on their food or drink. They retch and cough and vomit to get the stuff out again, because it doesn’t go down well, it lies too heavy on the stomach.
Losing yourself as soon as you present yourself: < looked at or touched
The most characteristic symptom of
Antimonium is the aggravation from touch. They don’t even want to be looked at, otherwise they get extremely angry. They experience these looks as a sign of disapproval or suspicion because everything they had to offer has already been given. It is all over, so when people still come to look at what they’ve got, they are surely only doing so for a laugh, to have something to snigger about afterwards.
Refusal to go along with ideas: contrary
They are generally quite contrary. There is nothing left to lose because it has all been taken away already. Perhaps they can be persuaded to put on a last performance or show, but it won’t be what it used to be. They may even turn it into a joke and show some ridiculous or awful pieces, just to shock people. The strange thing is that when they do go all out to shock, people suddenly get interested again.
This contrary behaviour can also express itself in a point-blank refusal to go along with anything that is being proposed. Their first reaction is always a standard ‘no’. You can see this especially in children who refuse to do things your way and need endless persuasion to come along. They will only comply if they can do it in their own way and in their own time. It is the child who wants to do it ‘by himself’ and the best thing the parent can do is to let him get on with it. This child won’t easily ask for help, he’ll figure it out for himself, don’t come near him! Or they refuse to eat what the rest of the family is eating and when the rest of the family is eating.
But this contrariness can also be expressed creatively. Everything they do is different, slightly mad, but definitely different. Every time they walk upstairs they’ll find a different way of doing it, back to front, upside down, on their knees, etc. As long as it isn’t the same way twice in a row. They can turn into real little comedians.
Admiration is poisonBecause they no longer believe in their own success they also don’t believe other people when they say they admire their work. This can’t be true, they can’t possibly mean it. Or they may be afraid that admiration will poison their mind and make them too arrogant.
Or they may feel that is is silly to admire anything even if you are totally struck by the beauty of it. Admiring something would poison the critical mind and ruin your objectivity. They tend to guard themselves against admiring comments with sarcastic remarks about their own abilities, saying it is all vastly exaggerated.
They even have a physical fear that people will use subtle ways of trying to get rid of them, for instance by sneaking some poison into their drink.
Unforeseen remarks: shockingThey have an intuitive sense of spotting weaknesses and mistakes and they are merciless in their comments. They have nothing to lose, so why be nice about it. It doesn’t matter what other people think about their ideas.
At the same time they feel that only the most radical ideas have any chance of getting through to people. Nobody seems to realise how society is losing the most elemental values. So you have to be hard to get through, otherwise you can’t do anything about it.
Punks are a good example of the
Antimoniums: they go right against the grain of all the standard moral values. Their behaviour is contrary, their hair is contrary, it sticks up at right angles to their head, and they pierce all parts of their body with pins etc. They are revolutionaries who can’t wait to see our present day society collapse.
They may have many talents which they accept as a matter of course. They can even be real naturals at art or music etc. But they waste their talents because they feel these are no use to them. However, having the talent enables them to see exactly how things should be done and they are very good at pointing this out in their usual tactless and shocking manner.
Idealistic sacrifice: martyrThe real talent of an
Antimonium is to make a sacrifice from the courage of his conviction. The most extreme form of this is the martyr or the kamikaze pilot. It is born from the idea that everything comes to an end one day and you cannot hold on to things forever. If you have to lose anyway you might as well surrender now. It is better to accept the situation as it is and to make your sacrifice.
Another form of sacrifice is forgiveness. They are very good at forgiving people for what they have done, even if they have been fighting them in a political or religious battle for years. But they are only prepared to forgive after the other person has changed his ideas: until then forgiveness is out of the question.
They may end up in opposition groups like Greenpeace, because it is an ideal place to express their ideas and to be as contrary as they like, they will even be rewarded for it. Here they can make as many contra moves as they like, in the most literal sense of the word !
MindFears: heights, narrow spaces, shows,performances, speeches, suffocating, choking !!, alone, disease, death, evil, being approached, poisoned, ghosts.
Dreams: heights, falling, dinosaurs (a creature that is extinct), witch, gnomes, poison, being poisoned, lasting injuries, disease, death, accident, fire, party.
Mood: haughty, happy,cheerful, making faces, funny tricks, humorous; apathetic, changeable !!, hypersensitive !!; discontented, crying, desperate, depressed, melancholic, suicide with a pistol; > thinking and dreaming about country of birth and old friends.
Irritability: cross, moody, grumpy, angry, kicking, hitting, biting, scratching, pulling hair, swearing, stamping feet, breaking things; < hurt and humiliation, << looked at, << touched !!; anger leads to coughing, vomiting or breath-holding spells.
Mental: dull, intelligent, wise, intuitive, delirious.
Contacts: <-, silent.
Hobbies: music, flute, Greenpeace.
Sexual: ->.
Professions: artist, painter, writer, singer, musician, teacher, scientist, doctor, priest, vicar, bishop, shaman, governor, secretary, representative, advertising agent, public relations officer, top sportsman or woman.
Causes: disasters, humiliation, hurt.
GeneralsLocality: left.
Weather: cold, cold feet, < cold !!, < damp !!, > outside.
Time: < 11 pm; suddenly coming and going !!; moonlight, full moon.
Desires: cucumber !!, gherkins, sour !!, raw vegetables, fruit, alcohol, beer, brandy, pickles, eating, ice-cold water.
Aversion: cucumber, gherkins, sour, raw vegetables, fruit, alcohol, fat, eating.
Food: < milk !!, sour !!, wine, alcohol, bread, starch, fruit, stone fruits, cherries, kiwi, strawberries.
Menses: profuse; < before menses.
Sleep: sleepy,sleepless; jumpy; grinding teeth.
Physical: < touch !!, < looked at !!, < exertion, > rest; <- loud noises, < noise, music, pain.
BodySensation of a plug.
Cancer. Leishmania.
Coma; fainting << cough.
Weakness. Stitching pains !!, bruised pains, itching.
Headache !! in forehead, temples and vertex; neuralgia.
Eye complaints: inflammations, visual disturbances.
Colds with thin, watery discharge.
Tongue thickly coated white.
Voice problems: hoarse, loss of voice, stammering.
Chocking, retching.
Lung complaints. bronchitis, emphysema; breath-holding spells << anger.
Stitching pains in chest radiating to back and shoulders.
Cough dry, heavy.
Stomach problems !!, nausea, vomiting < cough; stomach ulcer, duodenal ulcer; stomach cramps. Eructations.
Diarrhoea, constipation. Pain in abdomen, distension.
Problems of genitalia, testes, ovaries; impotency, pain in testes, atrophy of testes or penis. Genitalia very small.
Painful urination, difficult, drop by drop.
Problems with joints; neck problems, stiffness. Pain in arms.
Bilharzia, sleeping sickness, aleppo boils or oriental boils, black fever or kala-azar, venereal granuloma.
Chickenpocks !!; warts, verrucca on soles of feet !!.
Cracks in corner of mouth and wings of nose. Boils on face, neck and genitalia.
DD:
Silver series,
Stage 15, Chamomilla, Cina, Cuprum, Ipecac,
Magnesiums, Mercurius,
Plumbum, Sarracenia.