Sense proving, Bochum, 16-3-2022, Britta Dähnrich.
MindExerting oneself, pressure of expectation, driven to accomplish something, driven from within, eager, must try hard, compulsive; ha: driven, overexerting oneself.
Everything is exhausting.
Dogged
Unconcentrated, scattered thoughts.
Thoughtless, unfeeling, uninvolved, off-putting Doubt whether I'm doing it right.
Feeling unlovable; doing anything to get love and harming myself in the process, to the point of beating, spanking, rape.
Demonic, something might jump out at me.
Contrast between difficult and easy.
Magic potion, priests, dervishes; deep knowledge.
A world with peace, understanding, tolerance, connectedness.
At peace with oneself.
Relaxed, secure, easy.
Cheerfulness, giggling, laughing (3), without reason, carnival, spiritual cheerfulness: nothing is important and serious.
Joy without effort Dancing, being exuberant.
Time and space are suspended, physical laws are suspended; e.g. hearing echoes in the hand; time passes very quickly; matter is not important.
Understanding without language Simply trusting.
Satisfied with what I do; what I do is important, no matter what I do. If I do it in unity, it matters to the world; I am valuable and matter as much as any other person in the world.
In unity and undisturbed peace; something indestructible in me.
Physical symptomsEye burning.
Tickling in the nose.
Headache forehead.
Shoulder pain, extends to arm Heat wave.
Cold flowing in the legs.