EssenceThey feel foggy, as if in another world. They live half conscious, as if they are not present, vegetating. This can be due to the fact that they feel not really accepted in their family. But they cannot express it well, as it has come from a pre lingual age. They feel as adopted instead of a real child. They have grief, sorrow and anger about event that are deeply buried in their memory. But they cannot express that anger, are too anxious for it. They avoid the problems and people that are connected to their grief.
MindAbsent, trance, dragged in a dark wet hole, a descent.
Merging with the environment.
Feeling as in a mist, shadowy, without any sound, as if far away.
Adapting, withdrawal, avoiding, hiding, speechless; let things happen, go with the flow.
Robust, as if combed in a certain direction - to have not much resistance.
Watching with fearful open eyes - unable to act.
Fear disease, fights, ghosts, violent men.
BodyFragile X syndrome.
See through a veil, blurred, fussy.
Tear open the eyes, to see clear.
Body is waving while sitting.
Becoming smaller, slump.
Tastes like a bit like nasturtium, slightly burning tongue. Crunchy in taste, fibrous and robust.
Pain in the left triceps with numbness.
Pain left shoulder, elbow.