EssenceThis personality feels totally lost, like in adesert, almost dying, from thirst. Or it feels like a sailor in a storm with massive waves, he get in the water, unable to distinguish left from right, up from down. Or it can be a man who takes drugs to understand himself, but it turns into a horrifying experience, a terrible bad trip. He feels overwhelming anxiety, insane panic, cold creeping into his bones.
The terror changes into peace and love after one has let go, after one has died the understanding comes.
MindMeditation; peace, praying, devotion.
Senses coincide: vision, hearing, taste, smell, touch.
Senses: acute, disordered.
Hallucinations: colourful, brilliant, fantastic shapes, moving with music, visual. Natural objects seem more brilliant, shadows deepened, flickering of lights greatly exaggerated. Moving scenes, dances.
Delusion: self is double, body transparent; mental, emotional and physical body are separated and at different places.
Loss of identity.
Delusions: monsters, gruesome.
Anxiety, neurosis, insanity, delirium.
Consumed by chaos.
A gift and a curse.
Schizophrenia.
Sad, gloomy, depression; melancholy; suicidal.
Mental weakness, slow, dull, drowsy.
Loss of conception of time.
Distrust and resentment.
Mood: changeable, suddenly, irrational, ecstasy.
Hysteria.
Egocentric introversion.
Diminution of will power, apathy and slow reactions.
Lazy contentment.
Sex: increased or diminished.
Dilatation, omnipotence.
Isolation.
Dissociation, in space and time.
Identity.
Music.
Addictions, to drugs, alcoholism.
Colour preference: Gold.
GeneralSensation: constricting.
Weather: chilly, whole body; < changes.
Sleep: sleepless.
Physical: < closing eyes, < motion, > lying.
BodyNervous: paraplegia.
Vertigo: faintness.
Head: headache, tired, frontal, occipital, + visual zigzags.
Eyes: pupils dilated, accommodation impaired; ptosis.
Ears: hearing, disorders.
Face: scarcely moving, lips, jaws clenched; neuralgias, trigeminal, ophthalmic, maxillary, frontal, naso-ciliary nerve; warm cheeks.
Nose: smell acute, as of perfume; blunted.
Mouth: tongue paralysis.
Throat: Basedow's disease; goitre; hyperthyreosis.
Lungs: respiration difficult, breathing shallow.
Heart!!: constricting pain; numb; weak; pulse slow; stitching pain, < rest.
Stomach: burping; nausea, < motion, > lying.
Abdomen: bloating.
Rectum: flatulence.
Limbs: burning, fine tremor, incoordination; muscles tense or weak; reflex increased; hot palms, soles; hands large or small.
DD: Ecstasy, MDMA.