IntroductionThey have almost reached what they want but just miss the last point, the last step to fulfilment. This comes often from youth where they were supported by their parents and father but on the other hand were left alone and even worse degraded. This gives them the feeling that they are not worth being on top and reaching their goal. They have all the talents and abilities to be successful but do not know have to do the last step. It is as if they sabotage themselves in getting success.
They feel very responsible to make the world a better place. They try to ameliorate the world, by working in alternative organisations, doing therapy. They see themselves and the world as a spiritual place, a place to develop oneself. But they feel they are not doing enough, it is not good enough. This gives them a bad feeling. It is always as if they just do not succeed. They feel not recognised or respected for their work by others. They feel criticised despite all their good efforts.
MindIrresolution, life is directed by chance. He does not know where to go, is too far away from himself.
Sensation: torn, torn from himself.
Discontent, retires in himself with bitterness.
Stressed when others come too close.
Irritated when not left alone, < others want something from him.
Ailments from being bound, limited, by family.
Aversion: massage or rubbing.
Dream: I and a colleague are sitting behind a computer and we felt a threatening and immaterial power coming near, we had fear.
Delusion: being bad, the world is bad.
Critical.
GeneralWeather: > sun; > open air.
Time: < 11 pm.
Desire: spicy pasta, sour, citrus; hot drinks, coffee, tea.
Aversion: fat meat.
Physical: < exertion and sport; > rest, sleep.
BodyFever: influenza with high fever, much sweating.
Head: migraine, as if in a vice, > drinking.
Eyes: pressing pain.
Nose: pain raw, scraping, back in the nose.
Heart: palpitations, extrasystoles; jerk of his heart to the right.
Urinary: cystitis; tearing pain from his bladder to his penis.
Throat: pain raw, scraping, < swallowing, <.
Limbs: knee weak, as if giving in, painful, < ascending.