Proving: sense proving, 6-4-2018, Rottenburg.
Prover 1Right after Polytrichum formosum I start washing Isothecium. Separating moss and earthy components is easier when the material is dry. After the separation I put the moss in a bowl with water. This time, the bowl is smaller, there is less material. Size does not matter here.
With a teaspoon I stir in the soup bowl, separating the last contaminations. That works out fine. While stirring, the water carries the last tiny pieces of contaminations up to the edge of the soup bowl, where I wipe them away with a kitchen roll. Stirring, wiping, stirring, wiping – quickly it becomes a technique. While proceeding so for some minutes, I suddenly realize what this separating material by washing means. It is like washing gold.
A gold washer washes away the useless and keeps the precious. Now I must be careful.
No one should notice what I am doing here. That would be dangerous. Hiding the “gold” would not be enough. They would kill me and look for the gold afterwards. Instead, I even have to hide the fact that I found something. My prey must remain a secret. Otherwise I will get killed. You get killed for smallest amounts.
(I) and (U) say: “It looks like you are stirring a soup.” - “Well, you are right in a way. But I won't tell you what I am stirring.” - “But later on, you will tell us, won't you?” - “No way, I won't tell you”, was my sneaky answer. I will keep my gold and my life.
At that point I notice that the group is no longer important for me. On the contrary, they are competitors. Even more, they mean a threat to me. I leave my place at the table together with my gold and my secret. What will happen to you is not my concern. Sharing is caring? No, sharing would be suicidal. I hold my treasure tight.
Even if it was my own stool. I don't share anything.
Attention! The others know that I keep a secret. So I have to isolate myself, keep totally away from people. Only then I can feel safe.
Ideas: like a scientist who does not share. A child retaining stool
AnalysisPhase 4: gold.
Phase 7: fear being killed.
Stage 12: precious; dangerous.
Remedy code: 3-333.47.12.