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Polygonatum odoratum
Year 2022, Issue 2, Article 8CaseAuthor: Jan Scholten
Case by Ulrich Welte.Young woman with OCD; twisted sexual thoughts. She has a compulsion to count, avoids the numbers 6 and 13; counts stairs and avoids the step 6 and 13. Counts off food, preferably in pairs of two. Starts every sentence with I.
Masturbated very early as a child, ashamed, feels guilty and unclean; still have unnatural sexual thoughts with children today, have to constantly tell myself I'm not a pervert. Twist my thoughts, exaggerate them and turn them in unhealthy directions, paedophilic ideas that only come because I did evil as a child and can't get rid of those sexual memories. I avoid children because they trigger these thoughts in me; avoid any wrong touching but know full well that I never will. At school I went to many parties, was called a dirty whore; was shunned, behaved arrogantly and was proud of my designer clothes. But to this day I'm still a virgin, never let it get that far. My relationship with my mother is just as problematic as with children.
Cramping abdominal pain, constipated for weeks, then diarrhoea during periods.AnalysisSexual curiosity and masturbation as a child triggered trauma and she feels unclean = lilies. Twisted thoughts: Twisted Lily.Follow upMuch better over the course of just under a year, dropped the compulsive counting, also the compulsive sexual thoughts with children were gone after 6 weeks, no longer stuck on the nonsense. After 7 mo she has control over herself again, also better relationship with her mother, not so tense, can also joke with her sometimes. When the paedophilic thoughts want to come back, she jokingly says to herself, ok I am a paedophile and they are gone. After 1 year, no more compulsions, goes "a million times" better, no more fears. Also has contact with her former school friends again, unthinkable before.
Masturbated very early as a child, ashamed, feels guilty and unclean; still have unnatural sexual thoughts with children today, have to constantly tell myself I'm not a pervert. Twist my thoughts, exaggerate them and turn them in unhealthy directions, paedophilic ideas that only come because I did evil as a child and can't get rid of those sexual memories. I avoid children because they trigger these thoughts in me; avoid any wrong touching but know full well that I never will. At school I went to many parties, was called a dirty whore; was shunned, behaved arrogantly and was proud of my designer clothes. But to this day I'm still a virgin, never let it get that far. My relationship with my mother is just as problematic as with children.
Cramping abdominal pain, constipated for weeks, then diarrhoea during periods.AnalysisSexual curiosity and masturbation as a child triggered trauma and she feels unclean = lilies. Twisted thoughts: Twisted Lily.Follow upMuch better over the course of just under a year, dropped the compulsive counting, also the compulsive sexual thoughts with children were gone after 6 weeks, no longer stuck on the nonsense. After 7 mo she has control over herself again, also better relationship with her mother, not so tense, can also joke with her sometimes. When the paedophilic thoughts want to come back, she jokingly says to herself, ok I am a paedophile and they are gone. After 1 year, no more compulsions, goes "a million times" better, no more fears. Also has contact with her former school friends again, unthinkable before.