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Piper unguiculatum
Year 2024, Issue 4, Article 5CaseAuthor: Jan Scholten
Woman, 50, cystitis.
She writes:
When I got home and last night and this morning, I almost panicked because of the strange painful feeling in my muscles, which makes it difficult for me to walk, and also because of the foggy absent feeling in my head, as if I have to control all my movements and thinking. Such a strange feeling! If I were to lose control, I would collapse, not be able to move, just lie there staring, with the feeling of no longer being there. But now I still resist being tired and not being.I can be quite morbid and certainly have a lot of heaviness on my shoulders, which I managed to hide quite well until now.
I now surrender to feeling sick, over-tired and depressed with a lot of still hidden sadness. I now even let everyone know about it. Despite fear of being rejected and this already gives a kind of 'peace'.I have a bladder infection again. I continue to feel terribly tired and miserable. The word 'pissed off' applies to my frequent irritation at my boyfriend's carelessness. I feel like I have to constantly control what and how he does his chores, because otherwise it gets very unhygienic or it becomes a huge mess. This takes up a lot of time. When I want to stop this control, I run into a lot of insecurity, both in terms of hygiene and collapsing, breaking or other danger. So I have constant stress and alertness with overactive adrenal glands. Sometimes I think, I will go away and not be bothered by anything.I also realise that I keep my heart closed, I control it with my head so that I don't feel too much pain. I do a lot of things in order not to feel any pain. Sadness is deep. I focus on "higher things" but forget my heart. Sometimes I think I can't feel anymore.
At unexpected moments I can feel and get moved, for example when watching a children's nature film about friendship and care of a child left alone for an animal thrown out of the nest. Abandoned children touch me deeply. Or also when a child sings the stars from heaven, lives its passion to the full. Then I notice that I also feel very abandoned and closed up and miss the warmth of the heart.Children and animals can touch my heart a lot. But there is always a pain underneath, for example because I hardly ever see my grandchildren. I can be very touched, for example when my friend drank half of my bottle.
That hurt terribly! I can still cry about it now! But I express myself in hurt anger. In the past, I would have walked around with these incidents for weeks without saying anything. What's behind it is feeling unseen and ignored. I am seen in my outside, but not in how I really feel. So I adapt easily and I don't see my heart feelings anymore.She experienced her childhood as problematic. She did not know what was true and felt as if she was not there, as if she was dissociated. But she always hid that away nicely. She always acted wise to understand her mother and not to say stupid bitch. Her parents were very funny, liked to go to parties and make a fuss. But she couldn't go there with her problems because they always distracted her. Her parents couldn't deal with feelings. She always ran after her father and tried her best to be seen. But her father was more interested in others.
In her adolescence, her mother became a rival, taking advantage of her boyfriends. If she said anything about it, her mother would make a joke of it and I would laugh. But she is also very much like her mother in joking and pranking.She has had several relationships, but has always been the one to pull the cart. She had to make sure the household was running and there was an income. She often had the feeling that they were profiteers who took advantage of her.She is a very sensitive type, with a lot of love for plants and animals.AnalysisPlant: very sensitive; lots of love for plants.
Carbon series: difficult childhood; problems with father and mother; feeling as if she wasn't there; children touch me deeply.
Piperales: recurring bladder infections.
Stage 6: Unhygienic; morbid; problems not discussed, but distracted.
Phase 3: not seen; pleasing; adapting.
Stage 12: Pissed off; frequent irritations.
Prescription: 3-622.63.12, Piper unguiculatum.Follow upAfter Piper unguiculatum Mk she feels much better. The bladder infections have gradually decreased and she feels much calmer. Her quality of life has gone from 40 to 70.
She writes:
When I got home and last night and this morning, I almost panicked because of the strange painful feeling in my muscles, which makes it difficult for me to walk, and also because of the foggy absent feeling in my head, as if I have to control all my movements and thinking. Such a strange feeling! If I were to lose control, I would collapse, not be able to move, just lie there staring, with the feeling of no longer being there. But now I still resist being tired and not being.I can be quite morbid and certainly have a lot of heaviness on my shoulders, which I managed to hide quite well until now.
I now surrender to feeling sick, over-tired and depressed with a lot of still hidden sadness. I now even let everyone know about it. Despite fear of being rejected and this already gives a kind of 'peace'.I have a bladder infection again. I continue to feel terribly tired and miserable. The word 'pissed off' applies to my frequent irritation at my boyfriend's carelessness. I feel like I have to constantly control what and how he does his chores, because otherwise it gets very unhygienic or it becomes a huge mess. This takes up a lot of time. When I want to stop this control, I run into a lot of insecurity, both in terms of hygiene and collapsing, breaking or other danger. So I have constant stress and alertness with overactive adrenal glands. Sometimes I think, I will go away and not be bothered by anything.I also realise that I keep my heart closed, I control it with my head so that I don't feel too much pain. I do a lot of things in order not to feel any pain. Sadness is deep. I focus on "higher things" but forget my heart. Sometimes I think I can't feel anymore.
At unexpected moments I can feel and get moved, for example when watching a children's nature film about friendship and care of a child left alone for an animal thrown out of the nest. Abandoned children touch me deeply. Or also when a child sings the stars from heaven, lives its passion to the full. Then I notice that I also feel very abandoned and closed up and miss the warmth of the heart.Children and animals can touch my heart a lot. But there is always a pain underneath, for example because I hardly ever see my grandchildren. I can be very touched, for example when my friend drank half of my bottle.
That hurt terribly! I can still cry about it now! But I express myself in hurt anger. In the past, I would have walked around with these incidents for weeks without saying anything. What's behind it is feeling unseen and ignored. I am seen in my outside, but not in how I really feel. So I adapt easily and I don't see my heart feelings anymore.She experienced her childhood as problematic. She did not know what was true and felt as if she was not there, as if she was dissociated. But she always hid that away nicely. She always acted wise to understand her mother and not to say stupid bitch. Her parents were very funny, liked to go to parties and make a fuss. But she couldn't go there with her problems because they always distracted her. Her parents couldn't deal with feelings. She always ran after her father and tried her best to be seen. But her father was more interested in others.
In her adolescence, her mother became a rival, taking advantage of her boyfriends. If she said anything about it, her mother would make a joke of it and I would laugh. But she is also very much like her mother in joking and pranking.She has had several relationships, but has always been the one to pull the cart. She had to make sure the household was running and there was an income. She often had the feeling that they were profiteers who took advantage of her.She is a very sensitive type, with a lot of love for plants and animals.AnalysisPlant: very sensitive; lots of love for plants.
Carbon series: difficult childhood; problems with father and mother; feeling as if she wasn't there; children touch me deeply.
Piperales: recurring bladder infections.
Stage 6: Unhygienic; morbid; problems not discussed, but distracted.
Phase 3: not seen; pleasing; adapting.
Stage 12: Pissed off; frequent irritations.
Prescription: 3-622.63.12, Piper unguiculatum.Follow upAfter Piper unguiculatum Mk she feels much better. The bladder infections have gradually decreased and she feels much calmer. Her quality of life has gone from 40 to 70.